rely = satisfaction

"My salvation and significance depend ultimately on God; the core of my strength, my shelter, is the one true God." 

Psalm 62:7

Significance, Core, Strength, Salvation. These words have deep meaning.

Our salvation only came because Jesus GAVE His life for us.

Significance is that true feeling of matter. Are we good enough? Why do we work so hard everyday? Does it even matter? Do I even matter?

The core of who we are. What or whom holds us? Is our core constantly floundering and searching or is it firmly planted on God as our foundation?

God offers us so much strength but how often do we try to depend upon our own strength? Doesn't scripture tell us God's strength is only a prayer away?

The Lord has been working deep within me (after I finally quite wrestling with Him and allowed Him to start working) about finding true satisfaction in HIM and nothing else. My husband and I have had many different "life stressors" come about the past nine months or so. It's not that anything is bad but there has been more demands of our time, money, and in turn patience. We have a two year old that thinks she owns Target and refuses to walk in the store and lets everyone know by displaying a tantrum. I realize these are all normal life "stressors" and acknowledge that things will turn around. Yes, our two year old is quickly learning we are in charge, she is not. Consistency is a powerful and beautiful thing but it is HARD.

As I have been walking through this time I have realized that I have some deep things within my heart, my core, that are floundering. They are searching for significance and satisfaction. 

I have been absolutely exhausted trying to keep up with everything and find this significance and satisfaction. I have been trying to discipline my two year old in my own strength. I have been trying to make my marriage perfect in my own strength. I have been trying to do everything on my own to alleviate the things on my very busy husbands plate...in my own strength. 

The Lord has been knocking at my heart saying, "pray over these things." While I do take regular quiet time I've sensed the Lord wanting me to truly rest in His peace. I have found that when I pray over things, suddenly my satisfaction is in the peace and knowledge that it is not MY marriage or MY parenting issues but these are blessings from God. He has blessed us to equip us. He has blessed us to give us strength and wisdom, to mold us into finding God as our foundation. In turn we find satisfaction in Him. 

There is  richness, power, safety, strength, and correction to be found when we rely on our Lord. If you find yourself living today in your own strength, stop and pray that God will refocus your mind and your heart on His strength. When you find yourself exhausted from trying to fix, please, and correct you are exhausted because you are not relying on God's strength and power. Give up the struggle and rely on Him. He is a patient God waiting for us to depend upon Him and find complete satisfaction in Him. It begins with a simply prayer, "Lord, help me rely on you."